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[manorsuperman]

And I couldn't awake from the nightmare
That sucked me in
And pulled me under
Pulled me under

For almost two weeks now, Lana had been in Montana, dealing with the aftermath of Sam's goodbye via the ranch not far from her hotel. If she had been in the right mind to consider it, she would be amazed at her maturity. At the beginning of this year, she would have drown her sorrows in wine. She'd had a glass or two since, but nothing so excessive as she would have previously. Even if the lack of sleep caused her to fall a few times before managing to actually mount the horse she'd chosen to ride, it was a far cry from self-destruction, and a sign that finally, after all this time, she was showing signs of growth.

When she got back to her room, she headed straight for the bed and let herself fall face down. Her chest tightened, her heart thoroughly aware of how empty it was. Had her body not been so tired, she would have cried again, but instead she slipped into what she hoped would be a peaceful sleep.

But it never was, was it?

Lana saw a blur of pitchforks and fire, heard the anger of the crowd, images of a dark past flashing for half a minute before the flames roared violently before her. When they settled, she found herself in the Talon apartment, staring at the fireplace. She looked around before a sound behind her drew her attention. The face she met was a reflection of her own, while at the same time not at all herself.

"Lana, my dear. It's been a while, hasn't it?"

Lana stiffened in the realization of who stood before her. "Isobel."

"Always the smart girl, weren't you?"

"You--this is a dream. You can't be here."

"Don't be ridiculous," Isobel said with a laugh. "I'm always here with you, Lana." The witch stepped closer to her descendant. "Can't you feel me? That 'darkness' you try so hard to push down? You and I are tied together."

"No." Lana shook her head. "No, we're not."

A smirk. "We'll see, won't we?"

[ooc: Open for RP with likely_evil, if the idiot wants to call her.]

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[manorsuperman]

The sound of the phone jerked her out of her sleep. She was relieved to be awake after a dream like that, but at the same time frustrated that someone had interrupted her much needed sleep. It took her a second or two, but she eventually felt around for it, eyes still closed.

Lana assumed it was Clark, Chloe or Oliver, so she answered accordingly.

"I said not to worry. I'll be home tomorrow, I promise."

[likely_evil]

Sam was quiet a moment. Jealousy first spiked, wanting to know where she was who she was with and then he wondered who she thought was calling, and finally realized that she didn't know it was him.

She sounded tired. He had probably woken her up. But he had called so he had to say something, so he took a deep breath.

"Lana... it's me."

[manorsuperman]

Lana's eyes opened with his voice. She recognized it, even as disoriented as she was, but was she hearing things? Was she still dreaming?

She lay there for a moment, trying to gather herself as well as the breath to even speak.

"Sam?"

[likely_evil]

"Yeah. I... uh, I just wanted to check up on you. Make sure you're ok."

[manorsuperman]

She was quiet for a while, trying to find an answer, finally giving up with a sigh.

"I really don't know."

[likely_evil]

"Yeah. I know the feeling."

She would hear the sounds of the bar in the background. They were in a small place south of Kansas City, meeting in the middle of sorts and hiding from angels.

[manorsuperman]

She sat up carefully, rubbing at her face with her free hand. She wasn't really paying attention to the background noise.

"Not that I'm not happy to hear from you, but...what happened to goodbye?"

[likely_evil]

"I just... I..."

I want to apologize.

I want to tell you i was wrong.

I miss you.

I love you.

"...just thought I should make sure you're ok."

[manorsuperman]

That wasn't the truth, she could tell, and while she wasn't angry, she was in no mood for lies.

"Bullshit."

[likely_evil]

Sam started, his eyes knitting in confusion. "So you don't think I care about your welfare?"

[manorsuperman]

"No, that's not-"

She sighed and climbed out of bed and made her way out the door and into the cool air.

"You didn't just call about my welfare. I can hear it in your voice."

[likely_evil]

"Maybe not... but it's not going to change things."

He was lying to himself. He wanted her back so badly. But this battle... he was Lucifer's vessel! He couldn't put her into that line of fire...

Needing some air, he got up and waved to his brother, motioning at the phone before heading outside to lean against the Impala.

[manorsuperman]

And she was headed across the parking lot toward her rental.

"So that's it, huh?" A little bit of bitterness was starting to leak in. "There's no hope I'll ever have you back?"

[likely_evil]

Sam bit his lip. He had to tell her so she'd understand.

"Lana... I'm Lucifer's vessel."

[manorsuperman]

That made her stop just short of her destination.

"You're what?"

[likely_evil]

"He came to me in a dream and told me that I'm his vessel. And he's told me that he's going to keep coming to me until I say yes and let him in. I'm... I'm back with Dean now to prevent it but I can't... it's the devil Lana. I don't want you to face that possibility with me. Until this is over, as much as it hurts... I can't."

[manorsuperman]

Dreams. More dreams.

She took a few more steps to the car so she could lean against something, then rubbed at her face again.

"I'm not sure if that's going to be an option. We seem to be having similar issues."

[likely_evil]

Sam pushed away from the Impala and started to pace. "What do you mean?"

[manorsuperman]

"I had a dream about Isobel. She said I never got rid of her, that she's a part of me...I don't know, maybe it was just a dream, but with all the things going on right now I'm not so sure."

[likely_evil]

Cursing under his breath, he stopped pacing.

"Have you been feeling like yourself still? Blank spots in your memory?"

[manorsuperman]

She nodded, though he couldn't see her.

"Yeah, I'm fine. You kinda woke me from it, actually."

[likely_evil]

"Well, I guess I have good timing then," he chuckled sadly.

[manorsuperman]

"I feel like I've lived a scene from The Wizard of Oz, but without Toto."

[likely_evil]

Sam thought for a moment, then smirked to himself. "Was I the Scarecrow or the TinMan?"

[manorsuperman]

Lana laughed quietly. "I think you'd be the Wizard, actually." A smirk. "Dean's the Scarecrow."