Although she was an emotional person, emotional outburst weren't usually her thing. There were thoughts she kept to herself, but with as little sleep as she'd been getting lately, some things were bound to start spilling out, and possibly not making any sense at all.

"I've suffered a lot in my life, and I always wondered why God would let me go through all of it. I think I understand now." She took a shaky breath before speaking again. "And don't you dare add that to your list of things to be guilty about. Life is painful no matter what, and I'd rather that pain have a purpose than be meaningless. The people in your life are there for a reason. Don't let anyone, especially Lucifer, push those people out of your life."

Lana finally began to wipe away her tears with her free hand. "If you need to stay away physically, I understand that, I accept that. But if you need me, call. Please call."